You are probably wondering about 3 things so let me clear them up right now. 1) I have been really busy with school and work and, okay so this is an excuse so I am going to stop. I should be posting more, I haven't been, it's time to make up for it, 2) I chose Rule #111 (see above) because sometimes I wonder if I should err on the side of keeping to myself or if I need to do the opposite and open up(more on this idea in a moment), and 3) boxer briefs.
What does this rule really mean? Well if I were to look at the context of the movie it would obviously refer to the necessity of an alias if you were to crash someone's wedding. Duh. But as much as I love the movie Wedding Crashers this blog isn't really about that. I mean sure, it provides a nice context or inspiration for some of my posts but this blog really is deeper than all that. This blog is a way for me to express things about myself, whether through words or pictures, that I don't always tell people in my day to day life.
This is the crossroads I find myself at. I need to use a blog to express thoughts that I don't readily share with others in my life (family and friends included) but on the flip side I do put myself out there a lot. I do this mainly through humor and off beat randomness. That is a big part of my life for sure, but I also wonder if it is really a front. Not intentionally conceived but more of a subconscious defense mechanism. I know there are some times when I definitely feel like I am not being true to myself when I continue to go on and on about things, just to try and make people laugh or to get some sort of reaction. Yet I still do this.
Why can I not be who I am and not rely on witticisms and quick remarks to ensure I feel accepted? Perhaps I have been attempting to not reveal my true identity so to speak. But I don't think who I am is anything to be embarrassed about (well except for the embarrassing things). So I'd like to be more open with people. To push past whatever insecurities I have and just be me. This blog is a first step for sure because I probably wouldn't have really sat and reflected on what has been bugging me lately if I didn't have this as a vehicle. So thank you those of you who actually read this. Whether you are a close friend, an acquaintance, or my mom (Hi Mom!) just knowing that there are people out there that come here to see what is on my mind is a great thing. And maybe when we cross paths in the real world you can see me as more than just a cut up or a slacker.
So I now render Rule #111 moot in my life and want to use this opportunity to launch a new feature in this blog. I think that Wedding Crashers as my muse has been a good idea but I want to take this blog to a new level and not limit myself. So without further ado you will notice on the right side of the page that I am going to be coming up with my own rules: Carl's Rules for the Book of Life. Some will be originals, some borrowed, but all will be important things for me to keep in mind and at heart (don't worry, I will still reference the Rules of Wedding Crashing from time to time, I can't give it up completely...).
Rule #1 - "Be who you are and say what you feel because those who matter don't mind and those who mind don't matter" (Dr. Seuss)
Words to live by.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Rule #111 - Never, ever reveal your true identity.
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Hum...
For me, I have been told that I tell people too much too quickly. I kill the mystery of Eric; and because of that girls dont like it. They like the game, or the chase, or whatever it is. So, in that context, rulee 111 is pretty good. Keep stuff in and slowly let it out.
Dont worry about not knowing who you are. IF you feel you are using something to define you that you do not believe should define you, but in reality it does define you even if you do not know it does, well thats a different can of worms.
But what I feel you are talking about, I relate to. There are some things that are associated with me and that I associate with that are not me, but I feel it is expected of me, so I do it. That is more living a lie, and its not good. I try to recognize these things and ween myself away. Then there are my ways of dealing with sitations (for me, I do sometimes use humor and jokes, and other times it is arguing- not that i care about being right or anything most of the time, it is to get reactions, or to help other people and myself to expand out minds- sometimes I find my self arguing a fact that I dont care about just to be doing it).
I understand about this blogging thing being a vehicle to sit down and think. I do that, then reading your stuff gets me to reflect on me (even though that is not your intended goal, it still is good for me), so I will sometimes comment my thoughts.
The Carls Book... not a bad idea. Come up with your rules to live by. That is actually a good idea for a road I may travel down (of course, I would do Eric's Rules).
My final thought of 111. It applies perfectly to me. I do not know my true identity to reveal, as I am trying to figure it out. It may be one thing today, and something else tomorrow. But once I have it figured out, I will have to reflect and then make a decision.
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